Wow it was a fast term! unit 10

I learned so much this term but boy I can't believe it is over already. I learned some great revising techniques and I really feel my writing has improved I guess i will see when I get the grade on my final paper. No matter what the grade I know my writing has improved ten fold because of these two writing courses. It is funny more professional writing was on of my goal for while I was here at Kaplan and I feel like I have done that! check that off my list of goals. as I said before I am going to keep up this blog. I don't even think and one has read it but it is very healing for me to get things off my mind. I am reading a book about the paths the lord has laid in front of us and one of the main points it leave the past in the past and move on and one way to do that is to write it down and then you can leave it. so I think it will work very well for me also it will give me practice writing.

i do not understand

he is the one who distroyed our family. he is the one who has caused so much hurt. he is the one who they want to be with. it makes no sence to me i love them always and will do anything for them. i have devoted my life to them as long as they have been alive yet it seems they always want to go to his house is it because he lives with his mom. when they are there they get what they want they do what they want and they all have so much money over ther why stay with mom?

unit 9

I just got done with signing up for my next classes. wow i really did bad this term i am very disappointed in myself but in my defence there has been alot of family issues this term. I wanted to retake both classes for a higher grade but i can not financial aid will not pay for any retake of a passed class they do not care that a c or b is not passing to me. oh well:( I guess we live with what we can not change. just had to pull my youngest out of softball because of no car i am very upset.

Weekend alone

This is the first post I have done that I did not have to. It has been a long day and I am feeling sorry for my self so just thought if I can get it out maybe I'll feel better. My day started at 3:40 or so this morning with a call for Wanda's house Lexi was not feeling good pain in her neck, dizziness and ringing in her head. this really concerned me because it was unusual and since her seizers any time things are different I have to get her looked at most times just for my sanity. of course I do not have a car so I have to get Wanda to take us which she was more than glad to do but there is a price. I will have to hear how much she does for the kids all the time. W e were at the hospital from about 4:30 to 8:30 this morning and they found nothing ct scan was the same as all the other, blood work good and so on. Thank you God. while we are at the hospital her worthless father shows up after his night of parting stupid crack head. right away he starts calling his mom needs money needs gas so on and of course she finally gives in and lets him back in the house so he can hurt our children yet another time with the fake I'm sorries and I won't do it again! just the thought of those words make me sick. I really thought that once i booted him I would not have to deal with him, boy was I wrong. so here i sit angry with him for what he is doing to the kids, angry with myself for letting him talk me in to trading in my dieing van for a car that he has since taken from me leaving me with nothing!i do fell better now so I'll end hear!

unit 8

Things are kinda getting back to normal here. still no car but ok. The kids and I took a nice walk tonight to Walmart. I enjoyed the walk just wish the bigger kids could behave the way they are suppose to while in a store they act like animals! but the walk was good we were almost home and it started to pour. but still fun.I have been thinking about the blog and I do believe I am going to keep it going after the term is over i have always enjoyed journaling and this is a great way to do it. I only hope i keep up with it when I no longer have to.this has been a good release for me to be able to get what I an feeling off my mind. I have started planning Bella's late birthday party. Very late I am shooting for June 12th we have the pool so it will be warn enough to swim and i told her we could get another moon bounce. I am going to see if her dad will spit the cost with me , no likely but I have to try.
i guess that's it for now.

unit 7

My paper for my writing class is on epilepsy and teenagers. I picked this topic because I have a teenager with epilepsy. I thought that over the last 5+ years of dealing with my daughters epilepsy I knew all there was to be known about the disease and how it effects people. My ah ha moment came when I learned that adults who have or have had and are now seizer free have a greatly increased chance of some sort of social dysfunction. For instance they are more likely to have failed relationships, under employment, and even more likely to have been or to be in jail. and it did not matter if the person was seizer free or not. This was shocking to me and now because I am aware of it I have already been working on helping my daughter with the issues that could lead to the adverse effects.

unit6

I have had the last week and a half from H###. I am very behind in my classes because I was unable for the last week and a half to get online. So now I can get online and I am going through last weeks unit and this weeks to get caught up as much as i can. When I get to the blog for unit 6 I find myself laughing out loud. One of the topics to write about is what you have been dealing with the last six weeks. This for me has been the worst term since I started at Kaplan. First at the very beginning of the term my home computer crashes in addition to my oldest daughter being in the hospital. but some how I get past that. Then we get news from my daughters neurologist that she will need to in the hospital again this time for 10+ days for a new video study but this time they are going to open up her head and place electrodes right on the damaged area of her brain. the Doctor says not to worry because it is a very routine procedure. Ha not for me how could any mother not worry any time they are going to open her child's brain and add stuff to it. But we agree because hopefully the final result will be that they can relieve her of her seizers completely. Next both my washer and dryer quit working in the same week washer will only fill a little and dry will not get hot. so now I have to take the laundry for me and my three children down two flights of stairs to the laundry mat and then back up two flights of stairs.To top it all of just over a week and a half ago the car I have been driving,that was my x-husbands and he was letting me use as part of my child support payment, was taken back by my x leaving me with three kids one who is epileptic and now means of transportation. ha the icing on the cake was when the 1 year old cat go up and went to the bathroom on the sofa right in front of me. I was really feeling like wow what else could go wrong when i realized God brings us to our trials and helps us down those hard roads to teach us to be over joyed with what he gave up so we could be saved. I have my three wonderful children, myn health and the good Lord on my side. How great Life is!